Totally Not Related...
Today on the way to church I had a tea (thank-you Greg) and I won Roll Up The Rim! I was 0 for about 15 before today. I am not sure though, if I won or Greg did since he treated...Something else that's on my mind...
The power of prayer. The extent of it's power is so great, I would even guess that I have no real grasp on the true extent of it's power. I would even fathom a guess that it is really beyond all comprehension. But here is the thing; when I am placed in a position where the only thing I can do to help is pray I feel like I am not useful. I am action, I crave doing. Prayer isn't passive by any means, so why do I feel so passive when placed in a situation where that is the sole thing I am called to do? I want to lead a revival, a revolution, and I am told to sit back and pray. That is my job.
Why do I feel so useless? Why do I even argue with God over this one? I should take the tasks and rolls He gives me, and treat them with respect and honour they deserve. Where is my humility? I seem to have lost it somewhere along the way between God choosing me for this task, and me getting the message. I want to come before the Lord, and humbly lay everything at His feet. Why can't my head and my heart reconcile and realise that prayer can be one of the least passive, greatest, most important actions one can take.
I have seen the power of sincere prayer in my own life. I think of the ministry at SMU and how God has taught me so much about patience and prayer using that ministry as the vessel. I can't deny that prayer works. I know it does. It all comes back to my pride. God hears my prayers, no one else. By praying no one else will see my crusades. I crave the spotlight. I long for the visible front lines when God's will is being played out, not the invisible one. I need to get past this pride that blocks true potential.
Lord God, Help me to understand the incomprehensible power of prayer. Help me to crave prayer. Help me to appreciate the people that pray for me that much more. Help me to pray sincere prayers. Help me come to you with humility. Help me not to fight or resist your perfect plan. Teach me to pray as you would have me pray. Lord, make me the woman you want me to be. Amen